where to even start
i dont even know
lets see
i graduated from college
i have a college degree
its all over
its crazy, scary, intimidating, exciting, perfect, wonderful, and so much more all in one.
everyone asks me how it feels
and i dont know how to sum it up exactly.
i know that i spent probably four of the best years of my life at a place where i was truely changed.
for the good and for the bad.
ashley and heather have me in detox mode
its crazy how your thinking really does change when youre caught up in a little community like that
its time for me to show the world who i am because of my four years at mount vernon
relationships change.
you cant make someone care about you.
and im okay with that
because in that change, God provides and opens new doors.
and for that, im grateful.
thats where i choose to find my peace.
however much it may hurt, i want to choose to look back and be thankful for what was.
in other news, i know the greatest people in the world.
you'd think that after graduation you wouldnt be seeing much of your friends from school.
well ive been really lucky to know the people i do.
i think ive seen more of my friends from school than i have my own family lately! : )
its been wonderful.
what else
what am i learning about?
im learning about how im smarter than i act sometimes.
and how i want to show the world me, and not someone else.
im learning what it is to depend solely around the grace that God gives, and not man.
im learning that even when i think my life has fallen to pieces, that there is someone else so much worse off and its selfish of me to sit and feel sorry for myself.
im learning what it even looks like to be loved by my Jesus- and how i think ive been learning that my whole life yet never still can put words to it.
im learning what it is to just listen and not feel like we need to have the words to solve.
im learning that there is no other man in the world that i would rather be following than Jesus.
im learning that you can only run for so long.
im learning about hope.
hope in every moment.
hope for tomorrow.
we choose almost every moment in life.
how were going to respond.
how were going to feel.
most things are choices.
even if i dont feel like i like some of the changes going on in my life, i am going to choose to believe that its worked out for good.
because it is
and when i choose to believe that, things fall into line.
i dont know if ive ever loved any one deeper than i do my friends downtown.
i hate sitting here in my house and wanting to just be around them.
they bring me my hope.
they bring me my joy.
ive learned more from them than i have from anyone, ever.
do you find it crazy that a homeless man is more content with his life than your next door neighbor?
to see those smiles on their faces is something i live for.
to hear their hurt, is the greatest honor i will ever have.
im lucky.
God provides.
in every moment.
llc