in all and through all

i'm learning.
learning a lot of things, actually.
learning that i can't do without love.
learning that i depend on people more than i should.
learning that im addicted and become more addicted to grace each day.
learning that i screw up more than not.
learning that i don't have a lot of the answers that i have questions to.
learning about who i am.
learning about who i want to be.
learning about who i'm becoming
learning about how i don't want to be
learning about how god created my mind.
learning about how he created my heart, as well.
learning about people.
i love watching and studying people.
and making parts of them apart of me.
im struggling.
sometimes with loneliness.
other times with being so caught up with people that i forget about the richness of solitude.
with faith.
with being blessed even in the hardest of hards.
with trust.
but i know that where im at in this season is exactly where im supposed to be.
and i will run to find out why until i find it.
and ill rest in my Abba's arms as he whispers to me of his sweet love that i can't even grasp.
and through that, i'll be blessed.