oh for a heart that does not ache.

I learned something again this weekend.
A lesson that I learn over and over.
I learned, again, that its okay to be angry at God.
Its okay to be mad.
Its okay to be hurt.
It's okay to be pissed off.
Because He gets it.
He knows.
And as much as it hurts to see His child so shattered and hurt, He wants to hear it from the depths of our hearts.
He wants to share in that deep secret.
He counts every tear.
And although the feelings don't necessarily leave, something happens in that moment that you tell Him.
A weight is lifted.
A peace comes.
Something deep within your heart whispers "I know".
And somehow, you let out that sigh after a good hard cry, that you know deep within that its going to be okay.
Its going to be okay even if the rugs been pulled out from under you over and over.
Its going to be okay even more so in those moments.
It sounds so messed up in our earthly minds.
But, it's true.
And although its not a click of the fingers and move on kind of thing, we have to work through this heavy stuff weighing on our hearts.
And thats what I will do.
Because, somehow, He loves us.
And he pursues us and chases after us even when our lives feel like its a mess and we're mad, angry, and pissed of that God would oversee all the hard things that happen without doing something to stop it.
He pursues us.
And that, is the goodness.