well.
here i am.
in canton, ohio.
making it on my own.
at first it was a struggle.
a really lonely struggle.
but each day i feel my heart getting that much stronger.
this is such a new opportunity.
an opportunity to show the world who i am.
who i've become in the past 23 years.
a chance to discover even more who i am, and who God is in this moment.
"My own journey has taught me that only when I feel safe with God do I feel safe with myself. To trust the Abba who RAN to His wayward son and never asked any questions enables us to trust ourselves at the core." -Brennan Manning
a chance to be myself, freely.
"To open yourself to another person, to stop lying about your loneliness, to stop lying about your hurts and fears, to be open about your affection, and to tell others how much they mean to you- this is the triumph of the child over the pharisee and the dynamic presence of the Holy Spirit at work." -Brennan Manning
its beautiful.
this moment im in.
its irreplaceable.
and to know that i have the best people in the world back home waiting for and believing in me
that, in itself, is enough to keep fighting through.
because i know when i fall, not only am i falling into the arms of my Jesus, but im falling on this foundation of radical support.
i say this all the time, but i really am the luckiest person in the world.
to have friends who are so tuned into the spirit that will receive truth for me even when i feel as though i dont even have enough energy to press on- thats being blessed.
to have my homeless friends who can't even conjure up enough inside themselves to believe in who they are but have enough in them to believe in me- thats my extra push.
to have a family that i get to live with who are daily teaching me about love in so many different aspects- thats beautiful.
so here i am
i may get lonely,
but im not getting lonely alone.
because i am surrounded.
surrounded by love.
Though a mighty army surrounds me, I will know no fear. Even if they attack me, I remain confident. -Psalm 27:3
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