slam it to the left

its been a while.
where to even start- i dont even know.
what do i know for sure?
i know for sure that my life is a beautiful and perfect struggle.
and i am so thankful for that.
i know for sure that i have the most wonderful and lovely people in my life who speak truth into me on a daily basis.
i am so so lucky for that.
i am so so fortunate that i get to learn from such wise people.
i know for sure that there are a lot of people in my life that are hurting and struggling with issues my heart can not even come close to fathoming.
i wish more than anything that i could take their pain for them.
so im left feeling helpless.
i'm not a fan of that feeling.
i hate feeling like i cant do anything to help.
i know for sure that im learning what it is to love.
and not just to love, but to really love.
my homeless friends teach me that everyday in the way that they pour their love onto me.
doesn't even make sense, does it?
a person who has absolutely nothing but the shirt on their back and maybe enough money to buy some beer to numb the reality of their situation can give you so much more than the world could ever give you.
beautiful.
i know for sure that no matter what struggle i find myself in, that i serve a God who is a god of overcoming, peace, and love and that no matter what my battle, he continues to be my strength even when i dont deserve one bit of it.
and then theres grace...
i hope this finds you well.
you have touched and impacted my life.
thank you for that.