people.

i just found my old LiveJournal and Xanga accounts from highschool into college.
i put so much of my worth, my happiness, my joy into the hands of the people in my life.
it saddens me.
every post early on was "i am so happy- i have the best people in the world in my life".
people. people. people.
and to think that almost 10 years later, i'd come to know this King who holds my worth.
this King who pursues me even as i sleep.
this King who, even as i push away or decide not to look into His eyes, never turns his face away.
and to think that throughout all those years, my friends loving me, was simply a glimpse of the love i would come to know.
amen.